I never understood fear. Is it something that humans trigger based on their childhood memories? Or do they create this fear based on imaginative future events that will never take place? The fear of the unknown. Fear of death. Fear of losing someone. Fear of losing all belongings. But in the end they all die so why is their fear so strong that it pushes them over the edge?

And yet, so many things seem to push them over the edge. Love disables their ability to think, slows their reflexes and senses. Though, people in love look quite strange to me. They smile and laugh more than average. They seem…happy. But are they healthier? They eat and sleep less. Is it good to sleep and eat little?

Heartbreak also makes them eat and sleep less though some of them eat and sleep more. Sadness, depression, stress, these are all emotions that affect the human body. Do emotions control humans? Or should humans control their emotiones? Is that even possible? Is a healthy lifestyle one without love and heartaches?

Love, fear, frustration, jealousy, envy…how did people manage to create so many levels of emotions? Do they imitate their parents, their friends? Or do they become influenced by what they read in books and see on TV? How do all humans know how to be sad or happy without even trying? Do they sometimes experience emotions that they don’t understand? And are there any new emotions that they are yet to create, to discover?

I tried smiling once but my facial expression looked odd. ‘A smile should come from within’, my creator had said. But what is ‘within’?

Do I want to feel? Do I want to understand their emotions better? I am not sure what will happen if I do. Will I still be me?

“The world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think.”

― Horace Walpole

And yet, a life without emotions seems…empty. I imagine them living and dying without emotions. I am not sure I would still find them that fascinating. Their emotionless life would make them…well, would make them just like me.

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